Tibby

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Tibby: I’m Tibby. So I think that this project is really cool, and the trailers I’ve watched of other people have been really beautiful and awesome. And that’s about masculinity and I feel like I appear really masculine. I’m most often read as a straight male, or a queer male, at least. I definitely identify as queer and I don’t really identify as male. Recently moving to the bay area, and someone had identified Portland as ‘queer finishing school’ and then we referred to the bay area as ‘queer grad school’. I’ve also realized in terms of potential transitioning physically for me or not that I don’t have to think in terms of the binary of like, oh, if I’m a woman, I have to be femme and like wear a dress and have long hair. It was like, oh, there are like butch trans women, like, oh cool, I’m so glad I’m in queer grad school now. Good to know about this. I like my forearms and my hands. The only part of my body I’m not extremely comfortable with is my chest. I had pretty bad body dysmorphia when I was younger for years about my chest and having acne on my back and feeling like I was too hairy and my teeth being crooked cause I was in a skateboarding accident. Just had like these anxieties about my body but also had OCD and anxiety which just kind of combined to create some intense body dysmorphia but really I was totally fine and like average and touchable and attractive enough or whatever. But I also have a scar on my chest from a knife fight which I think is kinda badass, actually, I like that. And so in recent years I’ve gotten more comfortable with my chest, and I really like people touching my chest, and especially men. I find that men pay a lot of attention to my chest like thus being an erogenous, very erotic zone. And I really like that, it makes me feel desired and sexy. I jerk off in front of a mirror sometimes feeling sexy about myself or I’m feeling exhibitionistic. And I like having sex in front of mirrors with partners, I guess I just like to see a view, different view, like the perspective where you can see the whole act in context rather than from your isolated viewpoint.